Friday, February 27th 2004, 23:10
I thought the econ mid-term was on Thursday, but instead it was on Wednesday. So I was forced to drop that class because 20% of the final grade is too freaking much to make up for. The professor won't let me do anything about it, being one of the few that plays entirely by the book. So now I'm down to 15 credits this semester.
How wonderful; all the time I've spent working on problem sets together, all the effort that I've put into studying an preparing, all the fun and laughter that I've sacrificed for this hard class, all the crap about being one of the few freshmen in this third-level class and also one of the best... who cares. Hundreds of hours down the drain.
Yeah, I know people that are much more unfortunate than me. 10 years of hard work as an entrepreneur and a recession kills them just as they expand. A tennis player gets injured and there goes 3 months of his career. Old women losing their entire life savings to hoaxes and cheats. But still...
Why do I always have these setbacks in life? I wouldn't even attempt to list them - that will take pages. Why do I always lag behind in my life when everybody else just cruises right through? What is wrong with that damn reset button that keeps f***ing me in the ass? Am I destined to be a piece of manure for the rest of my life?
Looks like it.
Wednesday, February 25th 2004, 22:15
Bill Gates held a 2 hour Q&A session in UIUC today. Needless to say, the seats were out 4 months ago, and the place was jam-packed, so I just watched it on the projector somewhere else.
What amazed me most is the astonishing similarity between the kinds of questions asked by the business and the electrical/computer engineering students. Which makes me wonder: although impossibly hard, how advantageous it will be if you have both a business and an engineering degree!!!
Tuesday, February 24th 2004, 10:07
I better update before everyone thinks I'm dead.
But that's really because I have all these difficult exams and group projects crammed together. The problem with group projects is that most people I work with are two years older than me, and they are so used to the college lifestyle of sleeping late and leaving everything to the last minute, which completely unbalances my sleeping patterns. That's why I hate working in groups. Things better improve after this week...
Computer Science exam today and Econ on Thursday. The reason why I mention these now is so that when I get my results back I won't "discuss" (i.e. whine) about them. I figured you don't really need to know how badly or how well I did. Weblogs aren't supposed to tell everyone what you ate for breakfast everyday anyway.
BTW do you know where I can download piano scores? Buying them online is very expensive, but you can't really find any from file sharing networks either. Suggestions are appreciated.
Nerds and sad losers please click here.
Thursday, February 19th 2004, 00:43
Alright, let's be gay...
See how much you know me. Please post your score on my chatterbox.
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Tuesday, February 17th 2004, 23:58
I'm simply not keeping up with my usual standards of work right now. My assignments, quizzes and exams are all around B/C-ish range. I mean, why do those business school students work so freaking hard and distort the grade curve to insane proportions? This is just gay.
Saturday, February 14th 2004, 14:15 (Playing: {Chinese texts lost in archiving}
{link lost during archiving process}Happy Valentine's day...
Wednesday, February 11th 2004, 22:25
Poker: whenever you win, it's skill; whenever you lose, it's luck.
Tuesday, February 10th 2004, 21:51 (Playing: {Chinese texts lost in archiving}
I'm eating too much again. Especially carbohydrates.
Damn why did they have an oriental food night today anyway? I mean seriously, how long it take them to realise that General Tao's Chicken does not represent the pinnacle of Chinese cuisine?
Monday, February 9th 2004, 10:45
edit: Sorry for sounding like an idiot. I'm sure most people in the world are in less physical comfort than myself right now, so instead of whining, I really should've kept my mouth shut I guess. For those that wish me well, thanks so much, because I didn't really deserve it in the first place. I'm recovering faster than I thought. Until then, remember to keep yourselves healthy!!
I've never fell so ill in my life before. My fever's blocking my thought, the painkillers aren't even working, my headaches are stopping me from sleeping for even an hour, I can't even drink water without throwing up, and gosh, my back hurts like a b****!!! How am I ever going to catch up with all my assignments?
Nah, forget my GPA, forget all the missed meetings, forget Valentine's day. I just want to get well. Being this sick is just disgusting.
"The poorest man would not part with health for money, but the richest would gladly part with all their money for health" - C.C.Colton
Wednesday, February 4th 2004, 11:48
That's the bloody second time this semester. I stay up until 3:00 am to write up my papers, sleep for a few hours, and then rush to my 8 am class. Then the deadline gets delayed. And it's not just assignments, but also lectures, meeting friends... What is it about punctuality (a.k.a. the lack of it) in college that makes being on time so "un-cool"?!
However, on a happier note, I'm please to say that for the first time in many long months, I finally have something to feel happy about. I know it's nothing special, but you won't understand how much so little can mean so much to me. I needed the boost badly.
Hmm... so it's a little Tierce de Picardie before the next part of the piece, I guess?
Sunday, February 1st 2004, 10:37 (Playing: {Chinese texts lost in archiving}
The last few days were very cold. Why did I forget my down jacket on Friday night when it's (*ahem*) -32C and I had to walk 30 minutes back to my dorm?? Idiot...
I noticed that dorm food in UIUC has improved dramatically. I'm actually looking forward to meals now when I'm actually hungry. And that's including the late night section. A whole pint of Häagan-Dazs ice-cream for the price of a chicken burger? This is a serious health hazard, mind you.
Nothing much interesting, except for the fact that I've decided to take some honours courses and allocate my time a little differently than I have before. I'm working hard, but gradually I'm losing my ambition to succeed; been spending most of my time hanging out with friends and neglecting homework/study. Maybe when you grow, all your dreams suddenly disappear, and you just don't really care whether you're a blue collar worker sitting in front of the TV with a big belly and a can of beer or not. Or am I just not a very ambitious person to begin with? Not that it matters.
I mean, if you aren't the first, you can rest assured that someone will.